I’m in a weird place in my life right now.

For the first time, I’m facing a lot of things about myself that I never dared to address before: specifically, I’ve never really considered the depth or meaning of my relationships with other people, whether platonic or romantic.

I’m coming to grips with the fact that I have a few severe emotional & mental deficiencies when it comes to how I view myself, alone & around other people. Even worse, I am completely incapable of being platonic towards people I’m attracted to, or even simply stable around people I admire. I don’t know how to interact around them, to treat them like normal people, or even just to try & ignore them, and it destroys me. I have zero mental stability towards my own sexuality, needs, wants, or self care.

I feel like I'm experiencing & figuring this all out a little too late. And at this moment, I just need someone to listen. Thank you for taking the time to do so: this album is my first attempt at understanding myself.

"When someone feels sorry, at least you know for sure that they care
Then they try to direct you, you turn your back, and they're no longer there
Fields of wildflowers will brave seasons, with roots grown over time
But tend the late bloomers, shelter them, or else they start die"

All I really want is a hug, right now. Until then, I think saying these words should help a little.